Motherhood shifts,

unfamiliar ground we are breaking

my children and I.

What do we need from each other now?

I provide an income still,

though I'm close to breaking that particular chain,

just a little while longer....

as there's only one place for the young to hide in times of ecomic crisis,

 he doesn't leave home, university will settle delay on the breaking chains

she came home

and we have a dynasty to build

and I'm thinking

what sort of grandmother will I be?

Mmmmm

we're working it out and I'm trying to handle the changes

the responsibility shared is realer than ever,

who now feels less clever at giving them choices

and sharing control

everything difficult, little bits of give and take, shaking us

where are you mother

why not home

we're grown, but we need you

we're settled, where are you?

I never learned what I've taught you my children

so I'm happy you're different, better, stronger than I

its exposing

how less able I am afterall I have given

its okay though

just painful

this lesson in growing